My Own Worst Enemy

Does anyone else feel like me?

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 13:16:09 -0700

"I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,"

I've basically come to the decision that this song is the theme song to my life. It's perfect. As I sit here and write this blog, I cant help but to think that I am a shell of my former self. I literally think that all the months of people and things wearing me down have finally taken their toll, and now I'm left as an empty, emotionless, cynical shell of the person that I used to be. I catch myself being an asshole to almost everybody now, and for no apparent reason whatsoever, just because of the fact that I can, and the sad thing is, that I have no remorse for what I do. I have no clue what to do anymore. I have no direction, no motivation, no hope. I'm so sick and tired of the constant beating I feel like I'm destined to take emotionally because I'm not strong enough to tell myself to not fret about it. I wish I had that power, but alas I do not. One of my worse traits is that I do not have the ability to say no, because most of the time I'm too fucking nice to not help someone out. I dunno what to do anymore, I'm pretty much at that point where I'm just going to alienate myself from the mass population and go my own way and leave everyone else in the dust.

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5 Days in the Ghetto.

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Mon, 06 Aug 2007 00:30:25 -0700

Yay! a Post!

So I've done alot since my last post, like...work...read Harry Potter...work more...and....work. So this week my manager calls me and asks me if I can do a favor for him by going to this store in San Bernardino for its grand reopening for the rest of the week. So being the awesome employee I am, I say yes......but I wish I would of declined.
So not only was this store 35 miles away, it was in traffic most of the way and I swear to god the line of cars just to get off the freeway at the ramp was about a mile long. So I get there and this has got to be the most ghetto store EVER! It was horrible! The people I saw while I was there were totally mind-boggling. Like there was this big black lady that was uber loud and obnoxious who was there every day and she had 2 teeth only. And I saw a man with a real peg leg, like made out of wood. So I basically spent 5 days doing other peoples work for them since no one at that store would do shit for themselves. They even had me doing the managerial staff's work, and I'M not even authorized to do that, but they were to lazy to do it themselves. I also spent all day in a freezer stocking ice cream, and normally id love the cold, but not when its like -15 cold. I don't want to see ice cream for like 2 weeks. So all in all, it was a shitty week, but now I have 5 days off, and 4 of those days are gonna be spent in Vegas, WOO! and I have lots of money to spend while I'm there now, so I don't have to worry about that. I cant think of anything else to talk about, so ill leave it at that.

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Sea world

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Sat, 07 Jul 2007 17:37:21 -0700

Waiting for the pets show.

Sea world

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Transform and Roll Out!

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 21:31:23 -0700

I went and saw transformers yesterday and I must say I was blown away! That was one of the greatest movies I've ever seen in my entire life! The special effects when they would transform totally shocked me at how good it was. I only had one complaint, Megatron needed a longer part, but other than that, omfg amazing. If you haven't seen it, you go now...I'm serious...get off the computer and go to the theater.

Megatron-Full

Also there was this preview before the movie for this new J.J. Abrams movie, which had some sort of monster that did have a sound resemblance to the smoke monster on lost. But the trailer was pretty cool, but said nothing more then a date and that it was a J.J. Abrams production, so that should be cool to see what it will be.

Also now that I'm recovering from Transformers mania, I'm also now getting into Harry Potter mode...next week people! Who's going with me!

I've also decide that for some strange reason, I want to write a book. I'm serious, I totally want to write a book, not an autobiography or memoirs, but just like straight up fiction. I was brainstorming the other day and I actually came up with some pretty good ideas. Now if I actually do it, ill be surprised, but we will see.

I also want to buy an acoustic guitar and start learning how to play it.

"Freedom is the right of all sentient beings..." -Optimus Prime.........(since its 4th of July, thought it fit)

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Guitar Hero: Country Edition

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Mon, 02 Jul 2007 23:29:13 -0700

They should make this...Id totally buy it. Imagine playing Achy Breaky Heart on a playstation 2

Pure Genius..

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QotD: Grown-Up Boot Camp

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 23:18:42 -0700

What are three things you want to learn, and three things you can teach others to do?
Submitted by bookishbiker.

Lets see

Three things I would like to learn during some time in my life are

1. Learn a stringed instrument like Guitar or Bass
2. Learn how to Direct for movies.
3. Learn to cook a 3 course dinner.

Three things I can teach to others would be.

1. Photoshop- Editing, retouching, etc.
2. Basic Photography
3. Bag Groceries Correctly.

Im not sure what all I actually have to offer the world though, I always feel like I don't get much encouragement on anything that would make it worthwhile to teach to anyone. I mean with an exception to the first 2, I have no clue what else I could possibly offer to anyone that would even be worth their time.

Annyong-hi Kashipshio

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It only opens for beings with SOULS!

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Mon, 25 Jun 2007 22:59:01 -0700

I have come to the conclusion that the doors at work only open for those who are pure of heart and actually have a soul. It seems like when the person is rude, and they walk to the doors, they don't open up for them! Grocery store doors have soul scanners....remember that ya'll. Also today some crazy white trash lady thought it would be funny to try to corner me into a parking space while I'm trying to push carts, and I give her this dirty look cause I'm not amused, and she just yells "dammit" and drives off. Apparently she told another girl that she thought I was someone she knew and was just playing around, and realized I wasn't that person. I'm sorry, regardless of the fact, thats not funny to play around with a 2000 pound car and pretend like your gonna run me over, your foot could of slipped and ran my ass over. Fucking bitch, I hope you die. Also at work I'm being promoted (woo!) and have to go to checking school next week some time, at least thats what I'm hearing anyway. And now I guess were gonna have to pick up all the crap that Vons/Ralphs/Albertsons are causing (THANKS ALOT BRIAN! LOL!). This strike is gonna be fun. All in all, just take from this post, that you must have a soul to exit a supermarket. White Trash women and cars aren't funny and that strikes are good and bad.

Soul

Huí Tóu Jiàn

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QotD: Change The Channel.

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 22:18:48 -0700

Who's the most annoying person on TV?

Well I would have to say Nancy Grace. That woman is pure EVIL! She doesn't know how to actually do any reporting, instead she just beats down people until they kill themselves because she ate their soul. It's true! She made some woman feel so bad on her show, that the lady went and killed herself. The woman is just crazy

Nancy El Diablo

Nancy Grace? or Satan? You be the judge.

Also. Id like to say this is one of the most hypnotic songs ever and I love it!. It's called "Rehab" by
Amy Winehouse.

Rehab

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Sunshine and Summertime

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Sun, 17 Jun 2007 15:49:33 -0700

I am currently sitting in the bow of the boat, sipping a coors light and taking in the sun. It feels good to have a few days off of work, since I havent asked for a day off since I started in November. I think its about 109 outside and my skin is on fire, but good thing for sunscreen. Were also watching the asshole who is making a wake in a no wake zone. Dumbass. We leave tonight and i have to be at work at 12 tomorrow UGH! Oh well, might as well enjoy it while it lasts.

Sunshine and Summertime

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The Disneyland of Mexican Restaurants.

nobody@vox.com(Matt) — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 21:43:06 -0700

Hmm....I really have no clue what to talk about today. Not much happened at work, just the same ol' same ol'. Although someone did shit on the toilet seat in the womens restroom, so I had to call my Manager Johnnie. "Hey Johnnie, um there is some...stuff on the toilet in the womens restroom" Johnnie replied "well what kind of stuff?" I said "well you know...stuff" and he said "do you mean there is shit on the toilet? Why didn't you just say there was shit on the toilet?" and I said "well honestly, I find it hard to tell my boss Hey Johnnie some bitch shit on the toilet seat!" We had a good larf and he sent someone else to clean it up, since only managers are allowed to clean up human stuff. Shawn one of the managers was cleaning it up and I was telling him about the kid at parks and rec who decided to take a shit in the urinal. We both agreed that mine was worse LOL. I'm goin to the river till sunday night...YAY vacation...kinda.

Phrase of the day: "Mega Cake!"

Shalom

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